Speech:

So Before I start this, Sorry to anyone who I might alarm Life is a journey that we all sit and ride along. Taking these notes and then I write this speech while asking you for some answers But we don’t have that type of bond but Now that desires are gone and with the way the I’ve been living life lately If I died right now, you would put that fire on. Im Sick of this bullshit, people calling me a sellout because I said i was Christian so seriously and said no then I fell out Now I’m avoiding questions like a scared dog with his tail down Feeling so embarrassed cause now they looking at me like I’m the devil himself. What story should I tell now? I’ll just expose the truth I’m so close to the edge but I should be close to you But who actually are you? You never showed the proof And I’m only human so what am I supposed to do? There’s way too many different religions with detailed descriptions
Begging all men, women and even children to listen, Now I’m dealing with this backlash because I’m not a Christian. all I’ve been told is that I should always pay for my sinful life. I honestly can’t buy it, it’s just too hard to stand beside it I need an answer and if i’m being honest humans just can’t provide, it I look at the Earth and Sun and I can tell a genius person designed all of it It’s mind blowing, no one can deny. it Is heaven real? Is it fake? Is it really how I fantasize it? Where’s the Holy Ghost at? How long it take a Man to find it? My mind’s a nonstop tape playing and I can’t rewind it my elders gave me a bible and then expect me not to analyse it? now I’m frustrated and you provoked it and now I’m not reading that book because a human wrote it have a brain, shouldn’t you know that
You gave it to me to think to avoid every useless moment It was a mission that I had to abort because humans are lying with such an inaccurate source It’s going be hard to put me back on the course Next Jehovah’s witness to come on my porch, I swear I’m slamming the door A lot of people believe it though, but I’m not surprised Humans are just so dumb!, But I ain’t trying to take your legacy and torch it down I’m just saying, I ain’t heard anything from the horse’s mouth Just sheep always telling stories of older guys
Who were made by you when you finally vocalised Now I’m supposed to bow my head and close my eyes And somehow let the Holy Ghost come into the picture, sounds like a absolute joke. Show yourself and the conspiracy is done Every rumor’s gone, I no longer doubt this, you’re the one And all my old habits can hop onto a roof to plunge I’ll donate to a charity that could use the funds screw the club, instead of people I’d hang with a group of nuns. I hate the fact that I have to believe You haven’t been chatting with me like you like Adam and Eve
And I haven’t seen no talking snake or rabbit from trees With an apple to eat, that stuff never happens to me I don’t know if you do or don’t exist, this is driving me crazy
Send your condolences, this is me reaching to you so don’t forget If hell is truly your pit of fire and I get thrown in it im probably going to regret the fact that i wrote all this. But My gut feeling says it’s all fake, I hate to say honestly but screw it i should have lost faith This isn’t a small phase in my life, my perspective’s all changed My thoughts just keep picking everything apart all day However in my mind I make perfect sense because If you aren’t real then all my prayers aren’t worth a anything That would mean that I could just make up what my purpose is I guess.

Hmm let’s think what if Jesus was a facade? Therefore that would mean the government is God i’ve been feeling recently like they’ve been brainwashing us with a lot so much so that we now don’t notice that we’re stuck in their box. looking at it everything is what if, why is it always what if? Our planet what if, the universe what if, our own afterlife what if Every thing that deals with you is always suspect! at the end of the day This is my life and I’m living it i shouldn’t need to worry about what other people believe in . If you really care for me then prove that I need to live carefully
But I’ll be damned if I put my own pleasure aside for an afterlife that isn’t even guaranteed We are you, and you’re us, stop playing games My life’s all I got, and heaven is all in my brain And when I feel I am in hell, my ideas are what get me through pain Do as you please, and I’ll just do me, I’m a human, I’ll stay in my lane.